another year older

it doesn't quite feel like I'm a year older

twenty two

it sounds so grown up
and i still feel like the little girl
who ran after boys on the playground
dug in the dirt
and emptied detergent into her mother's high heeled shoes

well, acording to the calender, I'm another year older
i think i've decided this year that its best
to just stop counting

nothing less

Once in a while

the world stops
the wind stops
the trees stop
swaying
the people stop
saying
and time stands still

if only for a moment
life is put on hold

Once in a while
you recognize the day you are in
and grasp it
for what it is

nothing more
nothing less

branches swaying

morning dew
says how are you
ready to face this day?
what have i left
to say

if i do the dew
and say im fine
will i suffuciently conclude
this rhyme

if i dont do the dew
and say im not
the world may wonder
what i've forgot

loved ones praying
branches swaying
my peace comes from Him
and I'll answer

Jeg er bra, tak

can i love

Jesus.

If I was to write you a love letter, what would it look like? Would there be lots of blotches on the page where I couldn’t find the words to say or places where the lines were scratched out a thousand times? Would there be tears on the pages? Would the words be long and lingering or short and succinct? Would I tell you I couldn’t live without you? Would I tell you that my one desire is to live and breathe in you, or would I pretend otherwise?

CAN I LOVE YOU? Are we capable of such consistency in a world that is always changing? I don’t want to change. Instead, I want to grow in you, to know you more. I want to believe you more because I know you more. I want to trust you because of who I know you to be. I want to trust that the gifts I have to give are already yours. Would you work on my heart? Would you break me of my pride and stubborn fear? Would your holy spirit wash over me I pray that I would submit every aspect of life to you. Every desire Every fear Every tear cried ever Every heartache Every injustice Every burden Every person Every love Every gift Every goodness Every song Every joy Every pain Every hope Every dream Every project Every professor Every friend Every roommate Every Christian Every step. Lord of life would you define the boundaries of my mind and heart and the limits of my mind so that I would submit each and every thing held tightly to you?

Let my hands release and heart unfold and mind unwind so you can have your work in me…..that your peace would fill my heart. I want the peace that passes understanding and guards our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. I trust that you know me Lord and love me beyond what I can comprehend…….renew in me the faith of my first love with you.

undone

Today I realized something

If i stop
breathing
walking
moving
talking
spinning
dancing
running
hopping
and doing kartwheels

the World will keep on going
the Planets will stay in alignment
the Stars will be just as bright
the Sun will rise and fall
and people will maintain "order"

If I decide to take a day off
its possible

no one will notice
its possible
no one will miss
the running spinning and hopping
of my general existence

its possible that the world will be a better place

with or without me
but not
with or without God

if
i saw all
the miracles in a day
would i recognize that it was Him?
would i give the glory to Him?
would i stop thinking of myself?
would i leave the equation
and become
undone